My bags are packed. My Uber driver = friend settled. I’m going for the good-bye beer with friends in the evening. I am vaccinated, have visa, checked-in for flights and got sun cream in my hand luggage. I said good-bye to my Mom and dad.
Feelings? Panick went away, too many people told me that snakes are more afraid of people than I am of them.
I AM MAINLY SUPER EXCITED! I’ve never done such an extensive research before any trip and I still feel that everything will surprise me on each step.
I remember the feeling of fear while flying to Spain for my first live-abroad period. I remember excitement in the bus to Germany. I remember pain in Ryanair to Sweden. And I feel like now I will just experience pure love.
This week was hard. I was saying hellos and goodbyes in the same time. Had a lot to do and arrange, travelled through Poland and ran across the city. Went to all the doctors, survived many examinations and blood tests. I AM FINE.
My heart was broken. As I said before, if it wasn’t for my friends who were there for me in the middle of the night, I would not wake up because my heart and soul were in pieces. I am here and now, I am better and I feel something good and interesting coming.
That’s the reason which I did not acknowledge for long time, but this is why I really go to India! To back off from the first-world-problems, stupid minor things which can destroy our little universes, to get some distance, start to enjoy and love life, stop complaining. This is my goal, this is what I need India, yoga and meditation for.
I will try to give signs of being alive tomorrow during my travel on the fan page.
Peace and love, Zuza